A Dark Place

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Walking through grief and loss can be a dark place. Whether your journey has just begun or you have been acquainted with loss and sorrow for a while now, there will be times when you find yourself back in a dark place due to circumstances in life. Perhaps someone says something that brings up a painful memory. Maybe you just wake up sad and lonely and the day is a real struggle for you. Whatever the cause for finding yourself in a dark place, try to remember a few things.

First, when you encounter darkness, try to keep in mind that life is still the same as it was in the light. The goodness you know to be true is just hidden for a moment. There is still a familiar pathway you can find to get your bearings and work your way out of a dark place. Have the courage to take one step forward and then another and then another. You will find that a dark place does not have to hold you captive for long. Instead, it can propel you forward and teach you as you journey through it.

That leads to the next reminder. A dark place will not last forever. There will be an end to your darkness, your sadness, your trial, and your pain. The Bible says: “There is a time for everything, a time to be born and a time to die, ……a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance.” Ecclesiastes 3:1, 4 (NIV) The hard, unpleasant season you may find yourself facing will not last forever. While it may hurt to be in a dark place, that very place can serve a powerful purpose in making you work harder at healing in order to move forward with life. Your journey can also give you empathy to share with others who will one day face similar dark days. What you learn from walking your own path can help others as they struggle to walk and find light again.

Darkness has its own sort of beauty. Have you ever toured a cave? Some of them are so deep and cavernous that no light can be found in them except that which man has placed in them. Yet, people pay money and plan vacations to tour such caves. Why? Because there is beauty and wonder found within them. Realizing that beneath the surface lies great beauty can be the same with your journey. As you learn to deal with and walk through your sadness and grief, it is possible to find and experience joy, beauty, and light again if you look hard enough. Use the light of others’ experiences and God’s Word to shine into your dark place when you are unable to provide your own source of brightness. No one needs to walk a dark place alone.

The next time you experience a dark place, do not lose hope. Instead, embrace the darkness – not in order to stay there – but in order to beat it. Being proactive in dealing with your pain and sadness will help you have the upper hand in difficult situations. Life will be less likely to catch you by surprise and you will be able to find real beauty and joy in life – no matter your circumstances. Tell yourself that the darkness will fade and light will return, then focus on seeing that light before you as you courageously and steadily move forward through your grief and dark places. Be proud and rejoice that you can move forward into light again from a dark place.

Until next time –

Karen

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A Dark Place

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Have you ever been stuck in the dark? Imagine a place so black that it is impossible to see your hand in front of your face. When the boys were young, we took them to explore an old mining shaft. The elevator we entered was small. As we descended, we could feel the dampness creep in around us. It became a dark place as we approached our destination in the cavern below. Gratefully, upon disembarking from our elevator car, we encountered the lights strewn about inside the tunnels, illuminating the path we were to follow. That kind of darkness is one without visual light.

There is another type of darkness as well. This kind dampens our spirits, steals our joy, and allows fear of the unknown to invade our daily lives. Meet the darkness that accompanies grief.

The darkness of death and loss comes in many forms. One is through the numerous questions and uncertainties which bombard our daily lives. What will tomorrow hold? How will we manage without them by our side? Who can I turn to for help? Will the bills get paid? As the questions race through our thoughts, the darkness moves in, squeezing out the light of certainty.

Fortunately, we do not have to dwell within this darkness. We can make the choice to believe there are brighter days coming. While we may not be as certain of things as we had been in the past, there is a way of seeing light while passing through a dark place.

Having faith can make a difference in how the world looks to you. Faith is seeing light with your heart when all your eyes see is darkness. It is knowing that even though the future seems obscured and unsure, you can move forward into it, trusting while moving through your days. Be careful in what and whom you place your trust though. Putting that faith in yourself or others will land you on less than solid ground. While people may have the best of intentions, remember that no one is infallible. Mistakes will happen, feelings will get hurt, and you will find yourself faltering in your journey.

Securing your faith in God is the sure way of having your path clarified and your questions answered. Perhaps these things won’t happen immediately, but speaking from experience, there is light at the end of the tunnel. I know because I can see it now. That is why I chose a picture of light for this posting. We all see enough darkness walking through grief. I prefer gazing at and enjoying the light!

The beginning of a grief journey is a dark place. It does not have to stay that way though. Be aware that even when you have traveled forward a while, the darkness can seep back in, taking us by surprise and beating down the faith to which we have been clinging. Fight back! Do not allow the darkness to set up house again. Dig down deep and find your faith that will bring forth light.

“Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope [faith] in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.” Psalm 42:11 (New International Version)

Until next time –

Karen

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A Lantern for the Storm

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As a teenager, I did a lot of babysitting. One family in particular holds a place in my memory – though not for the reasons you might think. While I only sat for them one time, the impression of that experience gives me food for thought today.

Their home was only a few miles from ours and was an old farmhouse with high ceilings, wood floors, original light features and switches – very authentic with a few modern conveniences.

The night I went over to watch their girls was a stormy one. In fact, on his way out the door, their dad gave me final instructions to light the kerosene lantern in case the electricity went out since they had no flashlights. As the girls and I settled into having fun, I did not think much of those parting words. Growing up in the Midwest, I was used to thunderstorms and rain.

After playing for several hours, the girls went to bed with no problem. However, it was not long before another wave of the storm moved in, causing the wind to blow, apparently bringing down power lines and, yes, you guessed it – leaving us in the dark. The girls awoke with the storm noise and began screaming and crying. I brought them into the living room and lit the kerosene lantern as I had been instructed. I had never burned one before and was grateful their dad had taken the time to show me how to lift the glass to light the wick.

The parents arrived home a couple of hours later to find their girls back in bed and me seated in the dark with the one lantern burning. You may be wondering why I remember this experience so clearly. Well, as the mother walked into the house, she immediately began yelling at me, accusing me of ruining her house. Apparently as the lantern burned, black smoke rose to mark her ceiling with soot. I did not realize that would happen. I was simply following the instructions her husband had given me hours before.

You may be wondering why I chose to write of this not-so-pleasant experience today. Lanterns have recently been an object of study as I read through part of Exodus in the Bible this week. I found it interesting to realize the different between lanterns and candles. Candles burn off of themselves, using up their own wax to produce the light, eventually burning out as the wax is depleted. Lanterns, however, burn off a fuel. As that fuel is replenished, the light need never be extinguished, thus providing a continual source of light.

Walking through grief can feel like trudging through a storm. As you and I work to maneuver our way, we require a light to guide us. The path we walk is often dark, frightening and unfamiliar. Without some sort of illumination, we can fail to move forward in our journey. While it is possible to move in the dark, we tend to run into walls and dead-ends, causing unnecessary pain and harm. Your grief is already painful. Adding to your hurt can be prevented by seeking a trusted light source.

As we move forward living with loss, we need to have confidence that our path will remain lit. This means fuel is required for the journey. If we walk solely in our own strength, resembling the candle using its own wax, we will eventually tire and lose our light. However, if we allow God to supply the fuel for light, we can see the path lit by the  lantern that never stops burning. Trust that God will meet your needs. Accept His fuel for your journey. Discover the burning power in reading the Bible, praying and listening to good, solid teaching.

As you journey through your grief, allow God to fuel you. A lantern-lit path will be far better than one destined to end in darkness by candlelight.

Until next time –

Karen

 

“Light” in our Darkness

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As a child, I was afraid of the dark. Leaving a nightlight or the hall light on was how I preferred to sleep. Perhaps you have felt the same way at some point in your own life.

Since growing up, though, the dark doesn’t bother me as much. I can now sleep without a light on in the room or even in the hallway. In fact, I actually sleep better without the glare of light hitting me or reflecting around the room at all. Then why do I still face restless, sleepless nights at times? Why am I bothered and find myself so resistant to sleep  when I feel “darkness” in my journey?

This kind of “darkness” is different from just the absence of light. It is experiencing the absence of someone; feeling alone and abandoned. Isolation is such a difficult part of this grief journey. Even when we are in a room full of people, we can feel lonely. To the average person who has not experienced the loss of a close loved one, that type of loneliness may seem foreign. But to those of us who are navigating the road of loss, it is all too real and occurs way too often.

Tonight though, God revealed a new perspective on darkness through my reading and hearing Beth Moore suggest a new point in her A Woman’s Heart study, Session 3 DVD. In this section of the study we find that Moses had requested to see God’s glory; the very goodness of God that sets Him apart from His creation and everything known to man.

God grants Moses his request explaining what He would do to fulfill it. “There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen.” (Exodus 33:22, 23 NIV)

It was then suggested that perhaps the “darkness” we experience around us is not the absence of God’s presence in our lives. Perhaps it is merely a season where God has placed us in a cleft in the rock and has covered us for a while with His hand. It is dark there. We cannot see what lies ahead. We only know the past. Reliving that past can be difficult, long and frightening.

But, this season of darkness will not last forever, even though right now we fear it will. No, God has plans for us. And those plans include light, knowledge, and freedom from pain. We just need to have the faith and fortitude to wait on Him. Not an easy task, but one that is attainable because we do not have to do it alone. So as we sit in that cleft and see darkness, instead of feeling isolated and alone, let us imagine being sheltered, protected, and cared for. God realizes we can only handle so much pain along the journey of loss and grief. Allow His strong, good hand to relieve some of that hurt and let us strive to rest and find safety in the darkness He provides. He truly is the “light” in our darkness.

Until next time –

Karen